12/07/10

I have a final in less than 12 hours.. and i am currently sitting on my bed listening to yiruma and not studying.

first quarter has gone by so freaking fast and i’m afraid i didn’t try my hardest. now that i think about it, i think part of the reason i didn’t was to make sure that i didn’t miss out on any of the fun that people were having on my floor and feel “left out.” 

in my nature, i always make efforts to get plugged into others lives. i try to make sure i have equal amount of connection to as many of my friends as i can. but the downside to doing that, i’ve realized over the past few years, is firstly that i never got to have a best friend.. someone that i can rely on for everything or do anything together with. maybe that’s why i miss my old senior class from hope so much because they were definitely the closest thing i had to a “best” friend. second of all, i can only have so many connections at a time that it is really easy to lose some of those connections (i.e. with people from tp).

so i just wanna apologize to anyone who i forgot and continue to forget to keep in touch with, and hopefully ill be able to get back on track academically after winter break and do not get distracted too much by my tendency to try to connect to everyone’s lives.

time to get back to studying. bye tumblr!

time to put my thoughts into words

for a couple months that i haven’t been posting, i’ve been reading other people’s posts.. kinda creepy but i think it’s a way to keep in touch with all my friends’ lives.. though we may not talk at all, it’s nice to know that nothing tragic happened to them and they’re leading normal lives, having a great time wherever they’re at.

so to reflect on my first 4 weeks of college.. i have to say college really lives up to its expectations. it’s great getting to know people and being able to do what i want whenever i want.. and don’t get me wrong, i’m clean and staying clean. but back at home, my parents would always call me if i hung out with my friends past 11.. but there’s none of that here. in addition, there’s no more arguing, nagging, chores.. and there’s finally independence. i feel bad for saying this.. but home wasn’t exactly “home” for me.. and i would say i rather felt more at home around my church brothers and sisters. maybe that’s why i don’t miss my family much.

but then again, they’re always there for me, through thick and thin and after seeing them after a month of college made me smile nonetheless. and they were so thankful that im in a good environment with good food, and that i’m having the time of my life here. and i am thankful. i’m thankful for my roomies, my floormates, the environment, food, classes, church and everything.

i hope for the remainder of the time i spend here at ucla, i will be able to keep up this optimistic view on things. oh and i think i should post more often.. tumblr’s a good way to collect my thoughts.

summer 2010

by far the best summer of my life.

now that i’m home, there’s so much to do, unlike in korea where you’re just sitting around waiting for the weather to get cooler everyday. i love this period of relaxation.. and the freedom to go anywhere now that parents are more lenient.

my life is good

korea 2010

haven’t tumbled in a long time.. but i’m coming home in 4 days!! i haven’t been this excited since the first time i ever ditched a class.

so how was korea, many of you will ask. here’s my answer

the good

-seeing and hanging out with my relatives and family friends from my old church

-meeting/seeing kim tae woo, G7 from 청춘불패, MBLAQ and yuri from snsd

-downloading starcraft 2 for free using my grandpa’s ssn

-the nunas

-the fact that i am relatively not too short

-very cheap food

-my grandparent’s nice apartment and the night view from it

-road trips

-getting into korean girl groups again

-shopping

-adults giving me money (one envelope per adult pretty much) and learning to refuse it at first but accept it anyway

-pc bang and noraebang runs with friends

-lots of genesis coupes and k5/k7s

-being able to drink as much as i want with adults (don’t worry i didn’t get drunk or anything)

the bad

-the humid-est, hottest, and unpredictable-est weather.

-the fact that the subway station is a 3 minute walk from the apartment (why couldn’t they be right next to each other -___-)

-missing my dog and many people back in the states

-circumcision (ohh hell nawww -__-) and not being able to shower for a week in this weather

-overpopulation

-seeing couples virtually everywhere i go

-getting sickkkkkkkk of korean food and missing my deadly carne asada fries and pho and great khan’s and chipotle.. omg.

-not having a bed

interesting observations

-korean people wear the same exact thing and it’s really easy to tell apart a korean-ameican from a fob

-korean people don’t mind holding hands with the same sex even if they’re straight

-people at the clothes shops really, i mean REALLY want you to buy their stuff

-a lot of korean guys wearing 깔창 (guess what i bought today :) )

more to come, maybe?

but overall, korea is really awesome if you stay for around two weeks and spend time hanging out with your friends, going to places and meeting celebs. but more than that.. the weather and the other “bad” wears you out.. a lot.

i’m just glad to go home in just a few days!! and when i do, there shall be lots of brawl orgies, movie nights, food runs, or just me raping ben is good too. jk.

do i care about econ?

i thought i did..

it was one class this year that i actually tried in..

but there’s 5 weeks left of school

and i just don’t care anymore.

sorry aposh